When faith for a better tomorrow is all you can hold on to - Hold on to it even tighter!

This past weekend made me sit back and really thank God for his amazing love and faithfulness. Had I not had the courage to move forward, I‘d still be stuck where I was, I would still be unhappy and miserable.

I remember when I made the decision to end my four year old marriage to a man I had known and been with since my teenage years. The decision was not an overnight one. It took me about a good six months to conclude. I often sat alone and cried about what would happen. The guilt of taking my children from their father was unbearable, but the thought of my life being stuck in unhappiness and possible depression was even more hurting.

I knew that for me to be a good mother, I had to take care of me and I knew my marriage was one of the things that had to go.

A lot of people blamed me, but of cause I wasn’t s and still am not about to discuss the reasons for my divorce.

I was still a student when it happened, so financially I was at a bad place. There were months when I was over budget by a quarter of my salary. How I got through all that, is by God’s grace. Then there were people who thought they knew about me, who were very annoying with their constant questions.

I made a decision not to move back to my parent’s house as I needed time for just me and the kids to heal all together without any third party influence. My son was ok, but my daughter wasn’t very impressed. I remember one day she said to me if she was married, she would never leave her husband and make her kids move in into some low standard place. With tears in my eyes, I just looked at her. I wasn’t upset at all, but very hurt for causing her so much frustration, confusion and sadness which I couldn’t explain to her.

I knew it wasn’t going to be easy starting a new life, but I also knew it’s what I wanted. Looking back now after two and a half years I am glad I took that step. It has brought me to a place I never thought possible. I dreamed of being here and today I am finally here. I can only think of what the future will be like.

2 Kings7 v 3 Now there were four men with leprosy at the entrance of the city gate. They said to each other, “Why stay here until we die? ⁴ If we say, ‘We’ll go into the city’—the famine is there, and we will die. And if we stay here, we will die. So let’s go over to the camp of the Arameans and surrender. If they spare us, we live; if they kill us, then we die.”
⁵ At dusk they got up and went to the camp of the Arameans. When they reached the edge of the camp, no one was there, ⁶ for the Lord had caused the Arameans to hear the sound of chariots and horses and a great army, so that they said to one another, “Look, the king of Israel has hired the Hittite and Egyptian kings to attack us!” ⁷ So they got up and fled in the dusk and abandoned their tents and their horses and donkeys. They left the camp as it was and ran for their lives.
⁸ The men who had leprosy reached the edge of the camp, entered one of the tents and ate and drank. Then they took silver, gold and clothes, and went off and hid them. They returned and entered another tent and took some things from it and hid them also.
⁹ Then they said to each other, “What we’re doing is not right. This is a day of good news and we are keeping it to ourselves. If we wait until daylight, punishment will overtake us. Let’s go at once and report this to the royal palace.”
¹⁰ So they went and called out to the city gatekeepers and told them, “We went into the Aramean camp and no one was there—not a sound of anyone—only tethered horses and donkeys, and the tents left just as they were.” ¹¹ The gatekeepers shouted the news, and it was reported within the palace.
¹² The king got up in the night and said to his officers, “I will tell you what the Arameans have done to us. They know we are starving; so they have left the camp to hide in the countryside, thinking, ‘They will surely come out, and then we will take them alive and get into the city.’”
¹³ One of his officers answered, “Have some men take five of the horses that are left in the city. Their plight will be like that of all the Israelites left here—yes, they will only be like all these Israelites who are doomed. So let us send them to find out what happened.”
¹⁴ So they selected two chariots with their horses, and the king sent them after the Aramean army. He commanded the drivers, “Go and find out what has happened.” ¹⁵ They followed them as far as the Jordan, and they found the whole road strewn with the clothing and equipment the Arameans had thrown away in their headlong flight. So the messengers returned and reported to the king. ^{16 Lord had said.}Then the people went out and plundered the camp of the Arameans. So a seah of the finest flour sold for a shekel, and two seahs of barley sold for a shekel, as the
¹⁷ Now the king had put the officer on whose arm he leaned in charge of the gate, and the people trampled him in the gateway, and he died, just as the man of God had foretold when the king came down to his house. ¹⁸ It happened as the man of God had said to the king: “About this time tomorrow, a seah of the finest flour will sell for a shekel and two seahs of barley for a shekel at the gate of Samaria.”
¹⁹ The officer had said to the man of God, “Look, even if the Lord should open the floodgates of the heavens, could this happen?” The man of God had replied, “You will see it with your own eyes, but you will not eat any of it!” ²⁰ And that is exactly what happened to him, for the people trampled him in the gateway, and he died.
Be blessed beyond.