I do not need to be a giant; I just need to be me, small me!

God’s promises are so huge and vast, that when I look at them I just feel I need to be someone important to actually be good and have this great confidence to be certified good enough to possess them.

I was born a bright star, smart intelligent but childhood abuse changed my character completely. I learned to survive. Before the age of 25, I had kids and was divorced. Although some may say it was the beginning of the end, it was quite the opposite. For the first time in my life I enjoyed what my peers were enjoying for years: Self Identity.

This was the best thing to ever happen to me, an awesome blessing I once thought never possible. At last I could be my own person, make decisions and not have to report to anyone but God.

At the age of 20, I was diagnosed with severe depression, I lost a great deal of independence; I was literally put on constant watch so I wouldn’t harm myself. About a month before my 21st birthday, I was hospitalised after I overdosed on my anti-depressant (to this day, I struggle to swallow pills).

It took some serious spiritual and emotional work to be here today. I once asked God why he saved. I mean a lot of people go through what I went through and they never make it. It’s very simple; God pre-destined this life for me. All that I went through couldn’t break me as the work I was created for is not done yet. And part of it is sharing this.

With each day, I am thankful to be alive, to watch God unfold another layer of me. I may not fully understand what He wants for my life, but I know that from the small me shall rise a giant to be reckoned with, it’s not over by a long shot. I may be inferior in others eyes, but the one who created in me has purpose for my existence and every day I look at just how far He has taken me and then my faith in Him rises some more. I am beyond the age of seeking verification from others; I am confident that I am like no other, I am unique and loaded.

Gen37 v⁵ Joseph had a dream, and when he told it to his brothers, they hated him all the more. He said to them, “Listen to this dream I had:6  ^7 8 We were binding sheaves of grain out in the field when suddenly my sheaf rose and stood upright, while your sheaves gathered around mine and bowed down to it.” His brothers said to him, “Do you intend to reign over us? Will you actually rule us?” And they hated him all the more because of his dream and what he had said.⁹ Then he had another dream, and he told it to his brothers. “Listen,” he said, “I had another dream, and this time the sun and moon and eleven stars were bowing down to me.” When he told his father as well as his brothers, his father rebuked him and said, “What is this dream you had? Will your mother and I and your brothers actually come and bow down to the ground before you?” 11 His brothers were jealous of him, but his father kept the matter in mind. 10 
Be beyond blessed, I know I am.

Gen 41 v³⁸ And Pharaoh said to his servants, “Can we find a man like this, in whom is the Spirit of God?” ³⁹ Then Pharaoh said to Joseph, “Since God has shown you all this, there is none so discerning and wise as you are. ⁴⁰ You shall be over my house, and all my people shall order themselves as you command. Only as regards the throne will I be greater than you.” ⁴¹ And Pharaoh said to Joseph, “See, I have set you over all the land of Egypt.” ⁴² Then Pharaoh took his signet ring from his hand and put it on Joseph's hand, and clothed him in garments of fine linen and put a gold chain about his neck. ⁴³ And he made him ride in his second chariot. And they called out before him, “Bow the knee!” Thus he set him over all the land of Egypt.