Case of the Ex – uncensored!

All of a sudden my ex rocks up from nowhere. And I really thank God because if he had showed up this time last year, I probably would have fallen back into his arms. But this time I am like “Oh really, shame man”.

One would say I am bitter, but I am not. I am just no longer there, I’ve moved and grown.

I remember how I used to beg this guy. O my lawd, like begggg! We’d have a tiff and guess what. He’d be on silent mode lol, haai we ladies really do take crap yazi - how I thankful I am we’re through.

Just imagine me – me bagging a guy – that guy iyooooh!

This whole thing made me realise just how much I’ve grown. It’s true what they say – what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Phela when I broke up with him, the pain was so intense it felt like my heart was ran over by a train. Sometimes I wished I could take out of my chest and run it under cold water – you know just so it could cool off. I listened to Mariah Carey’s H.A.T.E U; Ciara’s Never ever just to mention a few.

Because my self esteem was so low, I felt like I’d never find (oh sorry, I mean be found) by  man 5 times better, I thought he was the it – but the it wouldn’t hurt me like that. The it would care about us from the onset.

Please can I just mention the prayers hle bathong lol! ‘Lord can you please fix us, God I love him…’ I am sure Jesus was on some ‘Oh gosh, is she still crying over that?’

One day a close friend of mine (who couldn’t stand the ex) asked me what is it that I miss about him and you know, I really had no answer. He was selfish, proud, arrogant and (gosh, I am gonna outta fingers counting here lol). It was the idea of having a man I missed, he was hard working and I really liked that about him. .

But still, he wasn’t as hard working on our relationship as he should have and what hurt the most is how quickly he dated – like a week later quickly!

This isn’t a hate mail, oh no. this is a note by a woman who has had to learn of her worth the hard and painful way. After the break up, I set down and I told God all about it, I wrote down all that I desired to see in myself first before in a partner – and as you can see, I am there, I have arrived. It also taught me to pray to God about every single who asks me out. It might seem foreign to others, but it works for me. I’d rather be impossible than nurse a broken heart that’s for sure– oh sorry, once bitten twice shy. He can go be single somewhere else for all I care!

I am simply blessed beyond…

Real love

I was in a conversation with a young lady yesterday and from what I could gather, there is a lot of young ladies who don’t know just how precious they. They don’t know that they are in fact a gift from the Lord to their future spouse.

So here’s the truth. Firstly you must know that God has created a mate for you (not mates) so there is really no need to go through every possible meaningless relationship hoping he might be the one.

 Isaiah 34 16 Look in the scroll of the LORD and read: None of these will be missing, not one will lack her mate. For it is his mouth (God) that has given the order, and his Spirit will gather them together.

Secondly, you must know that love is important. You must know you are worthy to be loved, but please don’t miss the point; you are worthy loved by you first before anyone else can love you. How can you expect a man to love you, when you don’t love you? How will you then verify the love that a man claims to have for you?

Thirdly, you must know this – only God can teach you love, for He himself is love. Spend time with Him. Read His word and praying for spiritual fulfillment. And as you do this you will begin to transform inwardly. You will know your real value and you will begin to value yourself and will automatically begin to want to wait on God for a spouse. You will be fulfilled and content.

And this is followed by this truth - you will begin to understand that you are indeed a blessing. And sometimes some work has to be done by God in your life to get you to that point. As we all know that a diamond or precious stone is found in rubble and then cleaned up to reveal its real value. So, when you’re still in the rubble, let it be God who cleans you up, allow His process to happen in you. And when He is done your real value will shine through.

Proverbs 19:14 Houses and wealth are inherited from parents, but a prudent wife is from the LORD.

Ecclesiastes 9:9 Live happily with the woman you love through all the meaningless days of life that God has given you under the sun. The wife God gives you is your reward for all your earthly toil.  

Be blessed beyond…